Hey, my name is A and my pronouns are they/them and I am a lesbian (yes they/them lesbains exist). I’ve been asked to write an entry for this blog and instead of making it all professional I’ve decided to make it more relatable. This entry is going to be about my journey of discovering my sexuality.
So, it all started when I was in 2nd or 3rd grade, you may think this is early but I didn't know that I like girls then I just knew that I was different. The initial realization happened when I was playing truth or dare with my friends and I confidently said that I wanted to kiss girls just to see what it was like, back then I didn't know that there was a difference or that there was a problem with kissing girls. My friends told me that that was weird so I just dropped it and kept on choosing my crushes for the rest of my time in elementary school.
When I was in sixth grade I met a person named S, they went by they/he/she pronouns and was lesbian. I was so interested in this whole new idea called the LGBTQ+ community. S introduced me to the term lesbian and i thought “I can’t be lesbian I had a crush on this boy in fifth grade” (turns out theres such thing as a platonic relationship, which is what we had.) So then I did some research (and taking am i gay quizzes) and I decided to come out as pansexual. Then I was bullied for that for almost the full year of 6th grade, then I came out as bisexual (which was also wrong). After questioning my sexuality still even after I thought I was bi I became really close “friends” with S. We did everything together but still said we were friends. Finally I sincerely thought about it and could never picture myself being with a guy so I decided once and for all I was lesbian. I was sure of this for a very long time and I still am, there is the small thing that I keep thinking about where I am attracted to feminine nonbinary people also, this could be counted as bi. In my opinion, if there are nonbinary lesbains then lesbians can be attracted to them also. There is a specific name for this and its gynesexual, I just am not quite comfortable with this term yet. I know that this is sort of all over the place but it is my honest and true story.
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